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hailey
happy girl
happy world
birthday
Sunday, November 15, 2009, 1:26 AM
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sr surpised me again on my 20th bday. i didnt know that celebrating bday at the pub was so interesting. you get wishings from familliar and unfamiliar faces. haha. i think on my 17 i was celebrating at a boatq pub also. but then i didnt feel so lonely. its until this bday that i thought i was alone. that's y i feel so blessed to have ppl wishing me happy birthday.
this bday wasnt a good one at all. from bday eve, i've been crying my eyes out. until the day after my bday. i just feel really really depressed. i even resort to going to the void deck on bday eve and countdown by myself with some beers. and smsing myself happy birthday on midnight. how saddening is that? and somehow disappointed with bf. i expected him to do more. but he can't. not that he doesnt want to. anw, he has also promised to celebrate my bday after the actual day. im waiting..
seriously, i used to like my birthdate alot. 13 nov. tot 13 was a nice number. but now. no. i hate my birthdate. i wish i can change my birthdate. but how to change smth after having it for so long?
tonight, sat night wasnt spent at clubs or pubs or drinking. went for a nice run with xr at compass. and immed after i reached home and bathe, i cant walk properly at all. haven been running for at least 6mths. but its good to sweat. hopefully sweating everything out so my tears gland would dry up or what. haha.
i cried so so much until my eyes were so swollen and painful. until then i understand how come some ppl can get blind over crying too much. needa get over this depressing period soon. small things seems so significant on my birthday period. that's y im so sad until i cried so so much. nv in my life i felt so small and invisible. guess its just part and parcel of growing up.
grow up hailey! welcome to reality!
this bday wasnt a good one at all. from bday eve, i've been crying my eyes out. until the day after my bday. i just feel really really depressed. i even resort to going to the void deck on bday eve and countdown by myself with some beers. and smsing myself happy birthday on midnight. how saddening is that? and somehow disappointed with bf. i expected him to do more. but he can't. not that he doesnt want to. anw, he has also promised to celebrate my bday after the actual day. im waiting..
seriously, i used to like my birthdate alot. 13 nov. tot 13 was a nice number. but now. no. i hate my birthdate. i wish i can change my birthdate. but how to change smth after having it for so long?
tonight, sat night wasnt spent at clubs or pubs or drinking. went for a nice run with xr at compass. and immed after i reached home and bathe, i cant walk properly at all. haven been running for at least 6mths. but its good to sweat. hopefully sweating everything out so my tears gland would dry up or what. haha.
i cried so so much until my eyes were so swollen and painful. until then i understand how come some ppl can get blind over crying too much. needa get over this depressing period soon. small things seems so significant on my birthday period. that's y im so sad until i cried so so much. nv in my life i felt so small and invisible. guess its just part and parcel of growing up.
grow up hailey! welcome to reality!
sickkkkk
Wednesday, November 11, 2009, 10:50 PM
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i feel terrible. i can feel heat emitting from me.. yet, i am so damn cold now and i've sneezed at least 5 times already. am i getting sick? oh no!
i'm having runny nose too. why all bad things come in a bundle one har? why not good things?
anw merchant court is full on friday. so no more merchant court for din din on my bday. hais...
where tooooo?
i'm having runny nose too. why all bad things come in a bundle one har? why not good things?
anw merchant court is full on friday. so no more merchant court for din din on my bday. hais...
where tooooo?
no tears
Tuesday, November 10, 2009, 11:25 PM
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hurray, i did it without crying. i left my temp 3 mths job without crying. but maybe its because its only 3 mths. or maybe its because i have alot of things to do now. I haven got a day with nothing to do and staying at home for the whole fucking day! I've either been out for shopping or movies or studying at airport or pasir ris.
still prefer airport cause i get to eat popeye's mash potato. but i prefer the environment at pasir ris. why cant popeye just open a branch at white sands?
sent my resume to mummy's friend. but i'm really lazy to go for an interview IF. if lah..
mummy says she took leave on fri to celebrate my bday for me. so i actually wanted to go shangri-la for lunch or dinner buffet. but mummy doesnt know how to go. so in the end we settled for merchant court. then bf says he'll bring me to shangri-la instead.
mummy's always so good to me.
on my 16th bday, she got me a diamond ring
on my 17th bday, she brought me to former stamford or former westin hotel for buffet lunch
on my 18th bday, she bought me a purple gold diamond neckalce
on my 19th bday, she signed a 10 course facial package for me
on my 20th bday, we are going to merchant court!
still prefer airport cause i get to eat popeye's mash potato. but i prefer the environment at pasir ris. why cant popeye just open a branch at white sands?
sent my resume to mummy's friend. but i'm really lazy to go for an interview IF. if lah..
mummy says she took leave on fri to celebrate my bday for me. so i actually wanted to go shangri-la for lunch or dinner buffet. but mummy doesnt know how to go. so in the end we settled for merchant court. then bf says he'll bring me to shangri-la instead.
mummy's always so good to me.
on my 16th bday, she got me a diamond ring
on my 17th bday, she brought me to former stamford or former westin hotel for buffet lunch
on my 18th bday, she bought me a purple gold diamond neckalce
on my 19th bday, she signed a 10 course facial package for me
on my 20th bday, we are going to merchant court!
last day
Sunday, November 1, 2009, 10:15 PM
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pictures taken in office's lift.
bf's away at reservist for 2 more weeks to go. my last day of work is tml. how to survive like that? i always get so sad and emo on the day before the first day of work and the day after the last day of work. i will feel so dammit bored and useless. feel like i have to depend on others when i'm so big already. bf always tell me it's ok since u're studying. you're still young..... hais..
but how he's not around to psycho me leh. i think i might just cry.
anw, idk why nowadays i look so fugging fat in photots. bf says dont look so fat one leh. i look nicer in 3d. he's such a consoling bf. lol.
bf wouldnt be ard for my birthday. sad right. his reservist end one day after my bday. and aft his reservist he'll be tired and cant meet me. and probably due to some personal reason he cant find time to meet me. he has so many things on his plate now. where to find the time for me? just ytd, he sms me saying he's going for meeting in camp or what. then i replied. how come go reservist or work u always have to go for meetings. hais............ busy man...
pictures taken in office's lift.
bf's away at reservist for 2 more weeks to go. my last day of work is tml. how to survive like that? i always get so sad and emo on the day before the first day of work and the day after the last day of work. i will feel so dammit bored and useless. feel like i have to depend on others when i'm so big already. bf always tell me it's ok since u're studying. you're still young..... hais..
but how he's not around to psycho me leh. i think i might just cry.
anw, idk why nowadays i look so fugging fat in photots. bf says dont look so fat one leh. i look nicer in 3d. he's such a consoling bf. lol.
bf wouldnt be ard for my birthday. sad right. his reservist end one day after my bday. and aft his reservist he'll be tired and cant meet me. and probably due to some personal reason he cant find time to meet me. he has so many things on his plate now. where to find the time for me? just ytd, he sms me saying he's going for meeting in camp or what. then i replied. how come go reservist or work u always have to go for meetings. hais............ busy man...
Sunday, October 25, 2009, 3:58 PM
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Been down at east coast and pasir ris for wkends. drinking beer with bf.
Been down at east coast and pasir ris for wkends. drinking beer with bf.
i'm in no mood to blog. wanna carry on with my storybk in my fictitious world.
time constraint
Thursday, October 22, 2009, 10:28 PM
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not blogging because i've got no time!
previously was rushing to get my OBU report done. then to tie up loose ends.
gonna amend my resume now to prepare for nxt year! loving it!
previously was rushing to get my OBU report done. then to tie up loose ends.
gonna amend my resume now to prepare for nxt year! loving it!
not enough time for thesis
Sunday, October 4, 2009, 10:36 PM
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im so stucked. i cant finish my thesis. its due on nov and i still have 2.3k more words to go. after the thesis i still have a skill and learning statement 2.5k words. i cant finish! it sounds so impossible.
the best i can do is to print out and look through it during my lunch time and edit using pencil. hais. cant someone help me? i'm stucked for ideas.
the best i can do is to print out and look through it during my lunch time and edit using pencil. hais. cant someone help me? i'm stucked for ideas.
i love my bf
Sunday, September 27, 2009, 3:59 PM
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me and bf went for a us-only getaway again!
this time is more fun and exciting because it's for 3 days and 2 nights. i've just came back from the trip. and now im so used to him already it feels really weird without him around. god, why do i love him so much?
we could have went to the wild wild wet during the wkends, but my lousy perioud has to come this wkend. and it's the fast and furious type! it finished over the wkend! damn. why cant it come one day earlier?
phone is sent for repair, so no photos taken by me. only a couple in bf's hp. and he finally found his nachos cheese mix in ntuc. and he keep staring at the cheese while waitin for the shuttle bus back to downtown and he's acting like a happy baby. he claims that he's the happiest man on earth to find the cheese. haha.
the shuttle bus to downtown is really bad bad bad. we had to wait since ard 6 to 7 plus. the timing of the bus is so damn off. unless you really have alot of time to waste, dont take the shuttle bus! i feel so sad then. cause we wasted so much time sitting at the taxi stand waiting for the shuttle bus. it was sunny at first, then red clouds, then red clouds disappear. imagine how long we've waited for the bus! bf went for reservist on fri, and so his muscles and back ached. so we cant walk. and he wanted to drive down to whitesands but i manage to convinced him to take the shuttle bus. it was a bad bad idea of mine. hais.
anw, mummy told me she went for wedding dinner at msia ytd. it's her colleague's wedding. then idk y she's still not back home yet. when i called her phone, it's still overseas line. did she went to stay at ah ma's house on the way? so not used without bf around. and worst still, im alone at home. and 'wors`er' still tml is monday and i have to work and school after that! this wkend past so so fast. i tot it's friday night we just checked in then suddenly it's sunday evening again?!
p/s. bf seems convinced that whatever i hold in my hand spoils. from hp, to even zips on bags. :(
this time is more fun and exciting because it's for 3 days and 2 nights. i've just came back from the trip. and now im so used to him already it feels really weird without him around. god, why do i love him so much?
we could have went to the wild wild wet during the wkends, but my lousy perioud has to come this wkend. and it's the fast and furious type! it finished over the wkend! damn. why cant it come one day earlier?
phone is sent for repair, so no photos taken by me. only a couple in bf's hp. and he finally found his nachos cheese mix in ntuc. and he keep staring at the cheese while waitin for the shuttle bus back to downtown and he's acting like a happy baby. he claims that he's the happiest man on earth to find the cheese. haha.
the shuttle bus to downtown is really bad bad bad. we had to wait since ard 6 to 7 plus. the timing of the bus is so damn off. unless you really have alot of time to waste, dont take the shuttle bus! i feel so sad then. cause we wasted so much time sitting at the taxi stand waiting for the shuttle bus. it was sunny at first, then red clouds, then red clouds disappear. imagine how long we've waited for the bus! bf went for reservist on fri, and so his muscles and back ached. so we cant walk. and he wanted to drive down to whitesands but i manage to convinced him to take the shuttle bus. it was a bad bad idea of mine. hais.
anw, mummy told me she went for wedding dinner at msia ytd. it's her colleague's wedding. then idk y she's still not back home yet. when i called her phone, it's still overseas line. did she went to stay at ah ma's house on the way? so not used without bf around. and worst still, im alone at home. and 'wors`er' still tml is monday and i have to work and school after that! this wkend past so so fast. i tot it's friday night we just checked in then suddenly it's sunday evening again?!
p/s. bf seems convinced that whatever i hold in my hand spoils. from hp, to even zips on bags. :(
i need a superman
Sunday, September 20, 2009, 10:17 PM
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im super duper bored now. but luckily tml is a public holiday. but i'm still having sch tml aftnn.
time seems to past so slow. how come my 3 mths contract is still not ending. only 1 half mth past.
work is not fun anymore. i dont like the what-went-wrong-where type of work. it's so boring to find out what some bug affects and answer for other ppl's mistake. worst of all, i hate to communicate to strangers.
skin has been rather bad these days and i went to work without any make up on for the past wk. everything is so dull now.
i need something to perk up my life.
anw i bought a samsung jet less than 1 mth again and it died on me one day. suddenly i cant on it anymore. i tried charging it but it doesnt helps. so i went to the service centre and try to bargain for a 1 to 1 exchange. but they dont have the stocks now. so i have to wait for 3 weeks. and my warrenty won't be extended. why why? then for this 1 mth that im not using the phone, aint i wasting the warrenty?
time seems to past so slow. how come my 3 mths contract is still not ending. only 1 half mth past.
work is not fun anymore. i dont like the what-went-wrong-where type of work. it's so boring to find out what some bug affects and answer for other ppl's mistake. worst of all, i hate to communicate to strangers.
skin has been rather bad these days and i went to work without any make up on for the past wk. everything is so dull now.
i need something to perk up my life.
anw i bought a samsung jet less than 1 mth again and it died on me one day. suddenly i cant on it anymore. i tried charging it but it doesnt helps. so i went to the service centre and try to bargain for a 1 to 1 exchange. but they dont have the stocks now. so i have to wait for 3 weeks. and my warrenty won't be extended. why why? then for this 1 mth that im not using the phone, aint i wasting the warrenty?
amusing morning
Tuesday, September 8, 2009, 10:23 PM
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feel so darn tired early in the morning, but everything seems better at night.
i dont even feel tired at all. and it just keeps rolling over. and i get more and more tired in the morning, and i reach workplace 5 mins later than the day before everyday!
first, i left home at 7am everyday. then after than became 7.15am. then now! its 7.30! haha..
even i am amused at myself.
not working tml, because shurong is having her ROM tml. yes, u saw it right. do not ask me funny questions like why shurong didnt throw a banquet. or is she pregnant?
nope, she's not. apparently, she and her bf went to a fortune teller and let him take a look at their birth times, date and everything. then the teller says that the bf HAVE to get married this yr, otherwise, other yrs would'nt be as good as this year. so, they decided to settle down now. immediately! and since its such a fast & furious decision, they doesnt have enough savings yet to throw a grand banquet. of course u need a grand one. because ideally you only get married once in ur lifetime. so they both decided to save up the money now and throw it 1 1/2 yrs later.
so that's about it.
i still have not changed totally my perspective about marriage. that's the job for bf. but then, since shurong's rom is tml, lets not even start talking about this.
i dont even feel tired at all. and it just keeps rolling over. and i get more and more tired in the morning, and i reach workplace 5 mins later than the day before everyday!
first, i left home at 7am everyday. then after than became 7.15am. then now! its 7.30! haha..
even i am amused at myself.
not working tml, because shurong is having her ROM tml. yes, u saw it right. do not ask me funny questions like why shurong didnt throw a banquet. or is she pregnant?
nope, she's not. apparently, she and her bf went to a fortune teller and let him take a look at their birth times, date and everything. then the teller says that the bf HAVE to get married this yr, otherwise, other yrs would'nt be as good as this year. so, they decided to settle down now. immediately! and since its such a fast & furious decision, they doesnt have enough savings yet to throw a grand banquet. of course u need a grand one. because ideally you only get married once in ur lifetime. so they both decided to save up the money now and throw it 1 1/2 yrs later.
so that's about it.
i still have not changed totally my perspective about marriage. that's the job for bf. but then, since shurong's rom is tml, lets not even start talking about this.
short points
Tuesday, September 1, 2009, 10:45 PM
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quick points.
-passed my tp. bf let me drive on that night from old airport kpe to home. and all the while he's shouting to me 'keep to ur lane!' ................. because he says i am a left-right-drifter. not that i overtake ppl, it's that im in my lane, but abit towards the left or right.
-passed my acca exams. left with 2 more modules, exam in dec.
-quarrels with bf abt the same old thing always. he keep saying hurtful words leh!
-cousin's wedding is confirmed at june. but it's on a monday cause sat no slots. so they wed on sat but dinner is on a monday night. im so envious.
-feeling really emo lately. i suddenly like the feeling of travelling on a bus and looking out, listen to slow songs. and forget about talking to anybody. jus my own time.
-found a hornet nest stucked to my window one day. scream my lungs out and bf bravely removed it for me. feel super disgusted. the mud hive is so hard and dry already. must have been there for quite a while. say 2mths? i cant believe i slp with a hornet nest so near to me everynight.
-a very long time ago, before i finally decide to trust love again, bf gave me a super big hello kitty. i think its bigger than me. but it's so big until i cant hug it to slp. so, i just leave it lying between me & mummy's bed. our beds are joined side by side btw. what a pity i cant hug it to slp.
-still drinking at least once a week. either at clubs or home.
-excited abt shurong's rom. 8 days from now. woohoo.
-passed my tp. bf let me drive on that night from old airport kpe to home. and all the while he's shouting to me 'keep to ur lane!' ................. because he says i am a left-right-drifter. not that i overtake ppl, it's that im in my lane, but abit towards the left or right.
-passed my acca exams. left with 2 more modules, exam in dec.
-quarrels with bf abt the same old thing always. he keep saying hurtful words leh!
-cousin's wedding is confirmed at june. but it's on a monday cause sat no slots. so they wed on sat but dinner is on a monday night. im so envious.
-feeling really emo lately. i suddenly like the feeling of travelling on a bus and looking out, listen to slow songs. and forget about talking to anybody. jus my own time.
-found a hornet nest stucked to my window one day. scream my lungs out and bf bravely removed it for me. feel super disgusted. the mud hive is so hard and dry already. must have been there for quite a while. say 2mths? i cant believe i slp with a hornet nest so near to me everynight.
-a very long time ago, before i finally decide to trust love again, bf gave me a super big hello kitty. i think its bigger than me. but it's so big until i cant hug it to slp. so, i just leave it lying between me & mummy's bed. our beds are joined side by side btw. what a pity i cant hug it to slp.
-still drinking at least once a week. either at clubs or home.
-excited abt shurong's rom. 8 days from now. woohoo.
long while
Wednesday, August 19, 2009, 11:10 PM
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it has been a long time. just finished work and school. been busy lately with my OBU presentation which is on monday. but i haven even start writing the lines yet. i just did the ms powerpoint only. god, why is it so troublesome. cant i be some genius and last min pop out something interesting to present my powerpoint?
sipping martell at home again. today's humps day. because the nds game, animal crossing, the tailor says that. and it kinda make sense since wed is like middle of nowhere. that's why humps day!
2 days ago, monday blues. then i was on my way to work, mp3 jumped to the song manic monday. awww. the lyrics are so true. and it make me grin on the mrt. haha.
will be abit busy lately and abit not busy lately. aiya, i cant make up my mind.
i'll be going to the supermarket with bf on friday night.
then we're going to a getaway near ecp for the wkends.
then monday is my darn presentation after work.
tues i'm off but i have my driving lessons in the aftnn.
wed i'm having my feared tp at cdc. after that bf says he's on the guestlist for butterfac. he said he choose that day cause he 'knows' i'll pass my tp and its a celebration.
thurs i'll be going to work and hopefully with a big grin on my face beacause i pass my tp.
and friday prolly out somewhere drinking? i hope.
thinking about who's the bf? not now. will reveal in due time.
btw, i wore specs to school and classes today because my eyes hurt! not as bad as i imagine what. at least my eyes feel better. who cares about the appearances when its the window to the soul that u're playing with. somemore its the eye which had a real bad infection before.
and i have to change my mobile handset before 10sept. you see, my viewty touchscreen died on me. the handset didnt die. but the touch screen is totally impossible. so if i cant use the touchscrn. the handset is like totally useless. and i let it rest for at a wk. then finally, it worked. but now the batt runs super fast.
like full batt, then suddenly low batt, then increase to 2/3. then drop 1/3. lol. and my batt is bloated already. gotta change it real soon cause the freaking peanut voucher that starhub gave is only vaild until 10sept. but i dont have a clue what phone to change to. lg phone is pretty but its not durable. nokia phone is fat except for the n series. but e71 is already a year old phone. i dont like sony and samsung. how how how. why like that?!
sipping martell at home again. today's humps day. because the nds game, animal crossing, the tailor says that. and it kinda make sense since wed is like middle of nowhere. that's why humps day!
2 days ago, monday blues. then i was on my way to work, mp3 jumped to the song manic monday. awww. the lyrics are so true. and it make me grin on the mrt. haha.
will be abit busy lately and abit not busy lately. aiya, i cant make up my mind.
i'll be going to the supermarket with bf on friday night.
then we're going to a getaway near ecp for the wkends.
then monday is my darn presentation after work.
tues i'm off but i have my driving lessons in the aftnn.
wed i'm having my feared tp at cdc. after that bf says he's on the guestlist for butterfac. he said he choose that day cause he 'knows' i'll pass my tp and its a celebration.
thurs i'll be going to work and hopefully with a big grin on my face beacause i pass my tp.
and friday prolly out somewhere drinking? i hope.
thinking about who's the bf? not now. will reveal in due time.
btw, i wore specs to school and classes today because my eyes hurt! not as bad as i imagine what. at least my eyes feel better. who cares about the appearances when its the window to the soul that u're playing with. somemore its the eye which had a real bad infection before.
and i have to change my mobile handset before 10sept. you see, my viewty touchscreen died on me. the handset didnt die. but the touch screen is totally impossible. so if i cant use the touchscrn. the handset is like totally useless. and i let it rest for at a wk. then finally, it worked. but now the batt runs super fast.
like full batt, then suddenly low batt, then increase to 2/3. then drop 1/3. lol. and my batt is bloated already. gotta change it real soon cause the freaking peanut voucher that starhub gave is only vaild until 10sept. but i dont have a clue what phone to change to. lg phone is pretty but its not durable. nokia phone is fat except for the n series. but e71 is already a year old phone. i dont like sony and samsung. how how how. why like that?!
pleasure
Tuesday, August 11, 2009, 10:50 PM
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sometimes, just a simple 8 letters word can give u a fatal blow.
urgh..
Monday, August 10, 2009, 12:13 AM
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been to clarkequay and zouk for the past 2 days. smth like rewarding myself for a wk of hard work juggling school and work at a so-faraway place from home.
having sch tml and sec school gathering for dinner.
curry today was lousy. i dont even feel like eating.
and i hate draggy stuffs. im in a very sian kinda mood now........ off to bed.
nighty
having sch tml and sec school gathering for dinner.
curry today was lousy. i dont even feel like eating.
and i hate draggy stuffs. im in a very sian kinda mood now........ off to bed.
nighty
confessions of an alcoholic
Wednesday, August 5, 2009, 11:11 PM
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nah, im not an alcoholic. i just cant live a few days without alcohol. be it beer or liquor. as long as it gives me the feel..
day1 without drinking (sun):
went for my fav mac shaker fries, then to compass to meet up with sr and brought veg home to whip up dinner.
day 2 without drinking (mon):
first day of work. after work i still have sch. very tiring. fell aslp in class twice i think. and i even sleep-write. i scribble something while i was nodding off. so slp immed aft i reach home, bathe and dried hair.
day 3 without drinking (tues):
hmm. in the office, i tot i smell some alcohol ard. oh gosh. this is just the begining. after work i was at ecp for hk dinner. reach home at ard 9plus. slpt at 10plus. because i was damn shag already. i even slpt in the car for a few secs on the way home.
day 4 without drinking (today):
gosh. im having a very bad temper. i get pissed over small things that someone elses says. i get very sensitive over my colleagues actions. i'm thinking too much. had school today as well, but not tired cause i slpt early last night. i think i have the energy to go mambo tonight. but im at home sipping martell neat. finally.....
day1 without drinking (sun):
went for my fav mac shaker fries, then to compass to meet up with sr and brought veg home to whip up dinner.
day 2 without drinking (mon):
first day of work. after work i still have sch. very tiring. fell aslp in class twice i think. and i even sleep-write. i scribble something while i was nodding off. so slp immed aft i reach home, bathe and dried hair.
day 3 without drinking (tues):
hmm. in the office, i tot i smell some alcohol ard. oh gosh. this is just the begining. after work i was at ecp for hk dinner. reach home at ard 9plus. slpt at 10plus. because i was damn shag already. i even slpt in the car for a few secs on the way home.
day 4 without drinking (today):
gosh. im having a very bad temper. i get pissed over small things that someone elses says. i get very sensitive over my colleagues actions. i'm thinking too much. had school today as well, but not tired cause i slpt early last night. i think i have the energy to go mambo tonight. but im at home sipping martell neat. finally.....